Wow, you guys. Talking about this whole “aching for another baby thing” has been so very helpful. Thank you all, so much, for your kind words and support. I had a few comments that were more critical of my situation, but Swistle pretty much summed up every thought in my head- and BETTER- with her comment. (Seriously. Go read it here.) And she’s definitely onto something with the whole “two kids in normal” mentality observation.
So, this morning I discovered that this girl:
My hat wearing, bug loving,
snuggly and sweet girl Kate,
Her school year has started off FABULOUSLY, especially compared to last spring (here, and just about every post for the month of May). But she’s been refusing breakfast, so I’ve been coaxing her by allowing her to eat WHATEVER she wanted, as long as it was something. I was so frustrated by her not eating breakfast, but I was trying to not make an Issue out of it, and I was also comforted by the fact that she does get a morning snack at school.
But this morning? I discovered her stash of everything I thought she’d been eating for breakfast, plus all of her morning snacks UNEATEN. And then David, who’s been emptying and washing the lunch boxes lately, told me she’s MAYBE eating one teensy bite of her sandwich at lunch, leaving the rest wholly untouched.
So she is not eating ANYTHING (except that one small bite of sandwich) until 3 pm when she gets home???????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!! At 7 1/2 she weighs around 44 pounds- she’s already a tiny kid.
I was LIVID to find this out. This is not normal! Why isn’t she eating? What the hell is going on here? How can she even LEARN a single thing, with zero food in her small system?
You guys. WHAT do I do? She’s obviously not doing this for attention, because her sneaky ways say otherwise… I can’t force her to eat. I don’t want to make a HUGE issue out of this. Food, of all things, is so goddamn tricky. But I can’t allow her to skip 2 meals and a snack every day, right?
This is the kind of situation that makes me feel like I’m failing as a parent.