The End (of the year, that is)

‘Tis time.  You can read past years here (2009) and here (2008).
1. What did you do in 2010 that you’d never done before?

Ride bikes in traffic in downtown Minneapolis and live to tell about it.  Ride an alpine slide.  Really, really disagree with my husband about something.

2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I think I’ll do more of a “to do” list (a la Jennie) this year instead of resolutions.

Here’s my resolution from last year:

-Take a photography class

Yep, but I didn’t find it very helpful.  Not hands-on at all…

-Take a knitting class

No, I did very little knitting this year.  But now that it’s winter, I’m going to retrieve my knitting bag and get on it.

-Participate in some kind of organized race/triathlon. Either alone or as part of a relay team.

Well, I started “training” for one.  But then my knee was really bothering me.  Or was it my ankle?  Hmmm.  Anyway.  FAIL.

-Spend alone time with each of my daughters monthly

I did spend time along with each of the girls, but not in an organized monthly way.  And I certainly didn’t spend ENOUGH alone time with each of them.  This would be a good one for next year, especially considering how I TOTALLY FORGOT about this resolution.

-Stop swearing so effing MUCH!

….Nope.  If anything, I swear MORE.  GAH.

-Discover any health reasons for being tired and solve them

I was fairly anemic at the beginning of last year, but that’s under better control now.  I’ve also just accepted that I really REALLY love taking a 20 minute power nap every afternoon.  From what I understand, it’s actually HEALTHY for you, so I’m going to stop feeling guilty(slashLAZY) about it and embrace it.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

This question is giving me Nervous Tummy because I can’t think of anyone and yet WHAT IF I’M FORGETTING SOMEONE.  One of my friends in our playgroup had a baby last spring, but I’ve gotten to know her so much more since then that I wouldn’t say I was close to her when she gave birth…

4. Did anyone close to you die?

No, and I am so relieved about this.  I know that eventually, if I were to continue to do this meme each year, my answer will be yes at some point.  And that idea makes me panicky.
5. What countries did you visit?

I think we need to band together and STRIKE this STOOPID QUESTION from the list.

6. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

Well, maybe a baby?  Or at least, on my way to having a baby?  Or at least, some clarity about the situation, some peace about the decision, and the ability to move on from it all.  Also, I’d like to meet some of my blogging friends this year.

7. What dates from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Taking the girls to the American Girl bistro and Mall of American amusement park for their 7th birthday on January 23rd.  Getting a new camera in March.  Our August trip to the Black Hills that coincided with our Minnesota friends’ trip was memorable and special.  David and I celebrated our 10th anniversary on 90210 with overnight stay in Minneapolis.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Well, I was pretty excited to win a blue ribbon for my photo at the Tiny Town County Fair.  And I was so proud of Marin transitioning into preschool so easily.  She and I are very bonded, and it made me realize that our strong bond is what gave her confidence to go out in the world with barely a glance back.  Letting her go is wonderful and bittersweet and joyous and painful, too.

9. What was your biggest failure?

I have several memories of Bad Parenting that are etched into my memory that I like to replay in slow motion to further torture myself.  Times when I let my own bad mood or poor judgement takeover a situation that should have been no big deal.  Times when I expected my kids to have more self-control that I expect out of myself.  I really hate that dark side of parenting, and I hope that my girls remember all the snuggles and bedtime reading and dances in the kitchen as much (MORE!) than they remember my bad moods.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

I had very few colds this year, but lots of head aches.  I also stepped outside on Christmas Eve and my feet went right out from under me, causing me to fall down the entire set of (brick) front steps.  Wanna see my ass-bruise?

11. What was the best thing you bought?

My camera.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

I have good friends that experienced job loss this year.  They have handled the situation with such grace and poise that they merit celebration.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

Glen Beck et al

14. Where did most of your money go?

Same as last year:  house, food, gas, bills… you know, the usual.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Ha, ha, ha getting a Keurig (TOMORROW, bitches!), taking photos (I especially liked doing this for friends a few times), East Coast Anne’s visit with her daughters in June, wanting a baby…

16. What song will always remind you of 2010?

This year my daughters became huge Taylor Swift fans, so I think all of the many, many times we’ve listened to her albums has forever etched her into my memory for 2010.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

a) happier or sadder? I think my answer from last year is still very accurate:  I’m not sure that I’m happier, per se. I do think, however, that each year I step into my own a little bit more, am a little bit more aware of who I am and what I want, am more comfortable in my skin. While this doesn’t necessarily equate to happiness, I think there is something quite satisfying about it.

b) thinner or fatter? More out of shape than ever.  This must change!

c) richer or poorer? About the same.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

I wish we’d spent more Intentional Time together as a family.  I wish I’d read more books.  I wish I’d spent more time really learning how to use the manual settings on my camera.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Evil speak.

20. How did you spend Christmas?

For the first time ever, we spent Christmas Eve AND Christmas Day home alone as a family.  For the most part it was awesome, relaxed, and cozy.  We had surprise visitors on Christmas Day night– Tea and her family– which was really great.  I love waking up at home on Christmas morning and coming downstairs with the kids to find out what Santa brought.  Marin was especially fun this year, as she thought it was all so magical and special.  Joan and Kate still believe in Santa with their WHOLE HEARTS, even though parts of the story are starting to seem impossible to them.  It really makes me wonder if they’ll still believe next year.

We celebrated Christmas with David’s side on the 26th.  I really like his family, and kids will always remember all the snow we had this year, and how all the cousins (even the BIG, TEENAGED cousins) went out to build a snow tunnel with them.

Right now we are in Rapid City.  We celebrated Christmas with my mom the other night, and it was really fun.  Tomorrow my dad is making lobster tails for us, and we’re celebrating with him.  His girlfriend seems to be on her best behavior (she and my dad even kept my kids overnight last night), so I’m really hopeful that this year will be drama-free.

21. Did you fall in love in 2010?

David and I had a really hard time disagreeing on the whole “having another baby” thing, which in the end was good, I think.  I realized– and he realized– how much we both care about what the other wants out of life.  I don’t think we’ve come to complete peace about it, and I’m not even 100% sure we’ll go forth with baby4, but I do love him more after all of that.

22. What was your favorite TV program?

I really liked Parenthood this year.  I don’t love all of the characters (Kristina, I’m looking at YOU), but I think they’ve captured something real with that show.  All of my other usual shows (Grey’s, Private Practice, Brothers and Sisters were all sort of MEH.)  (And I haven’t watched GLEE in forever.  Someday, I’ll catch up.)

23. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

No, but I do have a… situation that has far too much power over me.  I’d really like to come to a place of peace about it.

24. What was the best book you read?

Oh, how I loved “The Girl with a Dragon Tattoo” series and the “Hunger Games” series.  I have not been that “into” a series of books for YEARS, and to find two, back-to-back… it was reading bliss.  Also, I consider Lisbeth Salander to be a close personal friend now, so please refrain from speaking negatively about her.

25. What was your greatest musical discovery?

Santa introduced us to Mumford and Sons, and after one listening we were hooked.

26. What did you want and get?

A new camera, a Keurig (TOMORROW, have I mentioned that?),

27. What did you want and not get?

A list of camera equipment that will probably continue to grow even as items are crossed off.  A trip to BlogHer.  Pregnant.

28. What was your favorite film of this year?

Recently I took the girls to Tangled in 3D, and while I wouldn’t list the film as a favorite, the experience of watching them watch it in 3D was awesome.

29. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I was 35 in July.  David ordered me a delicious cake from the local bistro and invited my friends over for cake and wine on the porch.  I enjoyed myself very much.

30. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Regular exercise.

31. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?

I’m sorry… but what is this word you call “fashion?”  Is it purple?  Does it have a face?  Is it loud?  Can you throw it?

32. What kept you sane?

My friends in Tiny Town are extra-special.  East Coast Anne is my touch stone, my inspiration to be better.  David walks this life with me, all the not-so-wonderful aspects and all.  Blogging has been more important to me this year than any other so far.  Swistle was my sister in Babywant.  My girls make me laugh, allow me to experience the joys of the world anew, over and over.

33. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

I haven’t been really smitten by a celeb in a long time.  Though, I find the girl who plays Amber on Parenthood (Mae somebody?) fascinating.  She was in Hope Floats!

34. What political issue stirred you the most?

I can’t even believe that gay marriage is STILL a “political issue” in this day and age, and YET.

35. Who did you miss?

All of the usual– my peeps that don’t live in Tiny Town.  You know who you are.

36. Who was the best new person you met?

I’ve enjoyed getting to know a couple of people through a midwife study group that I go to.

37. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010.

While I am just as extroverted as ever, I DO need some regular alone-time to re-center myself.

38. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

I’ve yet to answer this question… why start now?


Wow, that was very therapeutic.  I feel much more prepared to create a To Do list for 2011.  And more determined to make it a great year.